annoyed

at this point, i really don't know what to feel. just the feeling i will explode in 5 to 10 seconds, burst this or these emotions stored in my heart. i'm hurt in the words he uttered, though i'm not sure if its pertaining to me. Waah, i can't help but to think of it! why is it that way? for the past days i proudly spoke to my friends that i'm happy then the moment i read that f&^*%$# whatever, i can't control myself to release this jerk. Dont worry i won't bother you anymore, from now on!

Beyond the Blues

From the teenager's perspective, any day can have the greatest highs and the greatest lows, depending on the circumstances and relationships. Really, break-ups are filled with all kinds of mixed emotions. Our self-esteem as well as our hearts is involved. Remember that every teens heart is fragile and we will love another. Actually before I attained this realizations I engaged to some helpful ways like praying, listening to someone, balancing and loving again.

Praying should always be the first step in terms of everything. God is on our side and cares deeply on those who are hurting. He's Listening and ready to give us wisdom to respond in our situation. I personally encouraging everyone to pray alone about the break-up and what's going to be in the future. This is the time to release all your aches wrapping your heart.

Secondly listening to someone who also suffered and survived in this kind of undertakings is an effective way. The approachable we are, the wider the door will be open for future conversation. It's really good to feel that there's someone speaking to you words of encouragement like our parents and friends. At the same time this is also the moment to voice out our hurt feeling, and it's really relaxing that there's someone also listening to you. In addition to this be realistic in our feelings.

Balancing our thoughts,attitudes and words toward the other person leads us to little by little forgiveness. Make sure though they hurt us, don't utter not so good words to them instead remain caring for them.(Who knows you might even still together down the road!). But really the thing is, friendship is still there even though it takes times to build it
again. Balance our attitude by not acting like a fool, just go on with the flow. Always be reminded that life must go on.

Lastly is loving again. It doesn't mean to fall again to other person that quick. There are lots of person and things to be loved. Though we've searched love at the wrong place the last time, time never stop counting and there are lots of time especially the perfect time coming. Just love the persons and career you have right now.

Fixing a break-up really don't happen overnight. It's like a wound that could be heal in time through the use of medicine. Use whatever opportunities we have to simply talk about life. Make sure our self-esteem stays in tact. Always tell ourselves that we have great qualities and we are special in ways that go far beyond a broken relationship.

Wrong Number

"wrong number" this is the expression we always used to hear when we use the phone then dial the numbers wrongly.ha ha ha.. What a shameful thing you'll ever did?*winks* But what does it feel if we didn't use the phone then someone speak to you that way???hmm *confusing, right?* Here's for you to understand, it's an idiomatic expression if you are admiring someone, then yah right you admire him in a way that you can't avoid the smile covering your face or maybe there's a thing tickling your heart when you see him. My heart beats faster and faster when i see him coming then look at me, smile then say my name "marga"! Gosh what a giggling moment! Unexplainable feeling that runs into my blood, veins, muscles and bones..But days passed, then you found out that all the unforgettable moments was just an ordinary moment for him cause he's heart is taken. He has his special someone. =( sad but nothing to cry about cause it's just an infatuation. There's only some part in him that caught my attention. That's the "wrong number" means to me.

Switching Worlds

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending"

I’m a college student pursuing a degree in Information Technology. At first this isn’t the course I really want. In fact, I’m so interested in Tourism, like what I said in my profile I’m an adventurous person and I loved seeing beautiful places. But apparently my parents can’t support financially so I decided to change my mind and grab this course. I’m not saying that I’m bitter because I have accepted the reality. And that’s the great lesson I learned. “Healing starts in accepting” and “life must go on and on and on”

My life is now different from where I got from. Switching the world of high school to college where professionals are produced is a big transition. Yes, I find a hard time now that I’m a college student. First in the list is the schedule. New set of classmates, new set of friends. Age gap between me and our classmates is one where I find time hard. Their interests are very far from what I wanted such as they like more “gimmicks” which is very aloof from my personality. But I think that’s a factor to test me if I can go find time to be close with them. Next thing, in high school, when the tic tac of the clock is in 5pm I’m already in our home but now that's the time when our classes will start. Big difference, right? Switching modes like this can teach me how to be more flexible and how can I handle my time responsibly or maturely. Lastly it's totally different when it comes to the subjects we're tackling. You must be always prepared every time you go into your class and if you miss the class for that day, you also missed lots of lessons and it's hard to cope up. Compared to high school even you were absent for a couple of days still it's easy for you to deal with the lessons. Meaning to say now I understand why many college students though they're sick they still go to class.

"So many quiet walks to take So many dreams to wake and there's so much love to make I think we're gonna need some time Maybe all we need is time And it's telling me it might be you All of my life "

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.

Reminiscence:"Looking Back"

A bachelor named Medwin Mariano and a lady named Cielito D. Mariano were destined to meet each other in Lord Jesus Fellowship (a Born Again Christian church). They’ve known each other more when there is play in their church where they acted as a couple and the rest is history. August 25, 1990 is the when they exchange their vows as lawfully husband and wife. A year ago, here I came a cute cute baby girl! February 09, 1991, 3:02pm to be exact. Actually I must be born in March but that what it happens. Cristine Margareth was the name they gave to me. If you want to know where my name came from, here it goes. Cristine? from Christine Jacob (my Dad’s favorite TV personality that time) and also we are Christians and the girl version of Christian is Christine. Margareth? this name was given to me from Margaret Tatcher. She’s the first woman Prime Minister of Great Britain. That’s the history of my name. I have a sister named Cielo Marjorie and brother, Martin Christopher is the name.

I end up my Nursery and Kindergarten at Cupang Elementary School. I won’t even forget the most embarrassing experience, the time I entered Kindergarten, have no teeth in the front part. Yes teeth! Meaning not only one but four and it lasted up to the end of my Grade 1 year. Other thing, I spent a hard time writing my name in script. As you know, my full name is Cristine Margareth D. Mariano. In grade three, here where my great career started, to be a secretary! (from grade school up to high school then college again?)*laugh* Grade four to six, a long journey I end up and graduated with honors.

High school. Yeah here it comes! Full of joy, exquisite experiences, lifetime moments you’ll cherish. I entered high school at Bataan Polytechnic State College. As i started being a high school student, i have also classmates since elementary up to high school like Jerome, Ahris, Diane and Christine. We're classmates for 11 years i think. Second Year(II-Quezon), little by little we're starting to bond with each other. So many events that bind us and lead us to more in tact relationship. Lots of personalities I won't even forget, here is Franz with an infectious laugh(i can't explain how he laugh, but i can say it's unique!)^_^. *huggles* . For my Junior year, here where i experienced the JS prom. I will never ever forget this memorable event in my life! Yahoo,life-changing I'll say..^^ Unexplainable feeling on my first and second dance.*giggles* . Senior Year. Our Last year in high school. I almost get in touch with everybody. I don't want waste time to be with them. We make every single day to make it extraordinary! My fourth year was the most meaningful and wonderful year though it has a sad part. Graduation. I saw the hard times and happy times we've been through. True that it's hard to accept that we'll be separating. But that's life! Important thing is we're still the Laboratory School "last batch" students, friends and family! Job well done.